I know, I’ve been absent recently. Some of you will have noticed that I missed posts for January and February. Both months were busy, and I mean so filled to the brim, that they both flew by before I’d even realised that they’d gone. Perhaps it was because I didn’t feel inspired to write and maybe I needed the break from the routine without ever realising it. I questioned whether I was done with the consistent writing, I pondered whether it was time for another challenge and I wondered whether I even needed to do it.
All that to say that in the end, I really missed it and I recently felt like the Lord say to me that I had more to share. So here we are, though I am not entirely sure yet what I am due to write. Reading back over these posts is quite the reminder of how much the Lord has been with me through this journey. It’s like a bread crumb trail reminding me where I am now in light of where I’ve come from.
There’s been a lot of writing on faith – in absence and in want, in plenty and in seasons of harvest. There have been encouragements of humanity, generosity, God’s timing, and hope. But where does that lead me now? I finished the year reflecting on what a season it had been, hopeful for what the new year would bring.
So far 2019 has been a challenge of the heart. The stretching and pulling that comes when we navigate relationships in life, the constant back and forth pulling, trying to be more righteous, trying to be more truthful. Yet, almost in contrast, there has also been so much to celebrate at home. I have already had some opportunities open up for what this year will look like (watch this space), dreams I have sought after for many years, prayers and dreams to be fulfilled. Finding my emotions sometimes in turmoil and sometimes in joy has been, as you can imagine, trying at times.
All this to say that the word I felt like the Lord gave me to begin the year was this: ‘I will be your peace and I will drive your purpose’. If all things work together for those who love God and have been called according to His purpose, there is no reason to be afraid, if His Spirit lives within me. That is where my strength lies, in the pressing into God and learning to trust His speaking.
Sometimes it can be hard to believe that what the Lord is speaking is true, especially when His word seems contradictory to what life is demanding from you. But if I have learnt anything of value throughout my life this far, it is that we WILL see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living. It is a great joy and an even greater maturity when we are able to move beyond our circumstances in a moment and trust our God is loving, and kind and true and able to move.
So, there’s some background about my absence, only to say that I do intend to keep writing, and will try to keep them monthly. But today I think I will declare just a word of Peace over today, over this week, over this year. A peace that is louder than the screams of this world, a peace that is taller, greater, stronger. My God’s Peace.
“Many, Lord, are asking, “Who will bring us prosperity?”
Let the light of your face shine upon us Lord,
Fill my heart with more joy,
when their grain and new wine abound.
In peace I will lie down and sleep,
For you alone Lord,
make me dwell in safety.”
– K xx